Not the Same

It’s the 5th month of 2009 and things haven’t been the same. I still remember I had this conversation with a friend during the beginning of 2009, he told me ‘Gimmo, I feel things will be different for me in 2009’ and what he meant was, he felt that 2009 will be a great year in comparison to the previous years he had. Although I have no idea how great 2009 will be for him and how bad was his past experience deep inside, I definitely feel the excitement gushing out of him over that time. In fact, not under his influence, I had this similar feeling even before he bring up the conversation. Something true about me is that I’m a dull person in nature and I’m not that kind of a person who look forward to a coming new year – the approach of Millennium years ago doesn’t excite me at all proves it.

Things haven’t been the same, I don’t wake up in the morning lazing on the bed no more, and I’ll wake up, look forward to the day sincerely, do what needs to be done, meet up friends and fully utilize each day.

Things haven’t been the same, I don’t look forward to weekend parties, and I feel contented catching up with some true friends and talk about simple stuffs.

Things haven’t been the same, not forgetting my plan, I devote myself into my job during work hours, learn everything I can learn and research on everything I need to know.

Things haven’t been the same, the takings of 2009 is unique, feels like a motivated kid trying to build the best sand castle on the beach out of his very own will to achieve satisfaction.

Things haven’t been the same, the fright of being alone when I’m sick has left me, I grew stronger, rather than thinking I need someone here to take care of me during the worst flu, I abandon that idea and accept the fact that I’m an independent patient, I do what I need to do.

Things haven’t been the same, 4 months had passed and I’m still going on with my best effort and time is not wasted, 4 months feels much longer than any other 4 months I had, the best thing is I’m feeling greater!

Things haven’t been the same, the sentence ‘action speaks louder than words’ finally got enlightened in my brain, a powerful mouth with a powerful brain without action brings vain at the end of the day. Life is not about how many times you success but how long you can maintain that particular success and how you improve on that success - I’m not talking about success, I’m still with the sentence ‘action speaks louder than words’.

But, some things are the same - today is Friday and still, TGIF because I’ve done all my work and I’ll be having a paid leave in office which mean I’m blardy free yet still have to sit in the office looking busy. So now, I’m doing some unimportant yet work related yet have to look as if it’s the most important task for the day. And I also have the concentrated and stressed frowning look as if I am extremely unapproachable and super hardworking. Life is tough!!