Not the Same

It’s the 5th month of 2009 and things haven’t been the same. I still remember I had this conversation with a friend during the beginning of 2009, he told me ‘Gimmo, I feel things will be different for me in 2009’ and what he meant was, he felt that 2009 will be a great year in comparison to the previous years he had. Although I have no idea how great 2009 will be for him and how bad was his past experience deep inside, I definitely feel the excitement gushing out of him over that time. In fact, not under his influence, I had this similar feeling even before he bring up the conversation. Something true about me is that I’m a dull person in nature and I’m not that kind of a person who look forward to a coming new year – the approach of Millennium years ago doesn’t excite me at all proves it.

Things haven’t been the same, I don’t wake up in the morning lazing on the bed no more, and I’ll wake up, look forward to the day sincerely, do what needs to be done, meet up friends and fully utilize each day.

Things haven’t been the same, I don’t look forward to weekend parties, and I feel contented catching up with some true friends and talk about simple stuffs.

Things haven’t been the same, not forgetting my plan, I devote myself into my job during work hours, learn everything I can learn and research on everything I need to know.

Things haven’t been the same, the takings of 2009 is unique, feels like a motivated kid trying to build the best sand castle on the beach out of his very own will to achieve satisfaction.

Things haven’t been the same, the fright of being alone when I’m sick has left me, I grew stronger, rather than thinking I need someone here to take care of me during the worst flu, I abandon that idea and accept the fact that I’m an independent patient, I do what I need to do.

Things haven’t been the same, 4 months had passed and I’m still going on with my best effort and time is not wasted, 4 months feels much longer than any other 4 months I had, the best thing is I’m feeling greater!

Things haven’t been the same, the sentence ‘action speaks louder than words’ finally got enlightened in my brain, a powerful mouth with a powerful brain without action brings vain at the end of the day. Life is not about how many times you success but how long you can maintain that particular success and how you improve on that success - I’m not talking about success, I’m still with the sentence ‘action speaks louder than words’.

But, some things are the same - today is Friday and still, TGIF because I’ve done all my work and I’ll be having a paid leave in office which mean I’m blardy free yet still have to sit in the office looking busy. So now, I’m doing some unimportant yet work related yet have to look as if it’s the most important task for the day. And I also have the concentrated and stressed frowning look as if I am extremely unapproachable and super hardworking. Life is tough!!

Self-Motivation

Some things that I’ve decided to do…

• Quit my job in July if everything goes smoothly according to my plan
• Devote myself totally into the job during work hours and learn what supposed to be learnt within this period of time before I quit
• Devote myself into the plan at the right time and work everything out consecutively
• Lesser updates/time spend on my blog but will try to do it once in a while
• Move to a new place near/within Melbourne City compound

I’ve did a lot of things since I came back to Melbourne, I can’t keep up with the updates as I’m not as hardworking with my photos nowadays. Apparently, the main highlights that I wanted to update are Jay’s Birthday which was last month, the twins C back to Melbourne for holiday last week, Nicholas back to Melbourne for holiday currently, Ting Ting Estelle a stewardess friend of mine dropped by Melbourne again yesterday and my trip to Bangkok and Kuala Lumpur when I had my 6 weeks holiday.

Just a quick update, Melbourne weather turned into ice temperature yesterday and I almost froze when I walk along Swanston Street, everyone on the road still seems very energetic towards the changes. People try to enjoy this moment - going steam boat for dinner, enjoying ice creams that won’t melt and boozing away to welcome the cold! I went steamboat last night and blardy China steamboat shop is so full of people and earning a lot of money that even the waiter is so full of crap attitudes. I can only remember asking them repeatedly the same question - where’s my balls fish balls that we ordered!?

I think I’m still an alcoholic inside out, I’m fine today but yesterday was terrible. I woke up with a bad headache so I called off half day work but still can’t recover after I rested, then I came into the office with the bad headache – suffered almost the whole day in the office until my momentum touches the golden liquid and then feel it down the throat, and I know I find paradise as my headache gone right away! Gosh, if only I can drink some alcohol during work, that’ll be the best! …

Okay probably not~

Melbourne Resonation

I’m back to Melbourne after 6 long weeks of holiday, I’m glad I still remember how reluctant it is to walk out of the house in the cold and find the morning so damn cold, how tired it is to stand in the train listening to my ipod and how boring it is to catch the time of the train I should take for work, then the password to log in for my job, the location of my office table and my leader’s name, etc – when these things comes around, I know things got back to usual again.

Usual might not be that usual, I’m lost getting back here – lost the sound where my nephews and niece cry and make noises during the morning before I wake up, lost the voice of my mum nagging me to come home for dinner, lost of the calls from my friends asking me to go bak kut teh for lunch, lost the feeling of having a car to go around whenever I like, lost of the feeling that friends are just one or two streets away from my house and lost of staying in the same time zone with most friends and family, and even lost when close one isn’t around.

I took 1 day to pack my luggage and another day to unpack them but I wonder how many days I need in order to pack up my feelings…

Alcohol Lesson

Don’t be curious why I’m doing this post - it’s for my own knowledge. I’ve ‘Googled’ the information from different sites and consolidated them. I thought it’ll be nice if I’m able to put those that I find interesting into one entry, the main purpose is to share and learn.

I believe moderate drinking of alcohol can reduce stress, create a carefree feeling which is pleasant and decreases anxiety. Sometimes, it might even help to stimulate appetite and swallow a whole cow, then act like a holy cow.

Moderate drinking is good in some ways but it’s definitely hard to keep at that level if you are someone who loves to binge like how I used to. Binging alcohol is fun when it reaches certain stage but if one exceeded the limit, it can cause blackouts, memory loss and anxiety - sweet dream will then turn into nightmare, nightmare will then lead to depression, and if too much depression, one will suffer from personality disorders and experience the worst nightmare, then die! Whoops, not die but some serious mental health problems in the long run. Department of health define moderate drinking as “no more than one drink a day for most women, and no more than two drinks a day for most men”, which also means if you think you are a ‘super’ woman or man who fall out of that bracket, drink and binge all you want.

Some people depend on alcohol when they are feeling sad as they believe it helps them to cope with difficult situations and emotions, few will heed the advice that alcohol will affect their judgment, behavior and deteriorate the emotions which will make the situation worse. Why worse? Because alcohol exaggerates emotions, aggravate it and make that person more aggressive, less patient and impede the ability to make responsible decisions! After all, alcohol is classified as a depressant, in simple, it make someone stupid. Something interesting that a few might know - "one night of heavy drinking can impair your ability to think abstractly and grasp difficult concepts for as long as a month"! Gosh~ Stupid for a month?! No way!! Maybe that's the reason I made Just a “Stupid” Post.

The stages that one might go through when they consume alcohol –

Take a ‘super’ man for example:

1. Feeling it
2. Buzzed
3. Tipsy
4. Drunk
5. Wasted
6. Hammered
7. Smashed
8. Screw up
   

Then a ‘super’ woman for example:

1. Happiness
2. Intense happiness
3. Feel sexy and dance
4. Hugs and kisses for everyone
5. Suddenly he’s hot!
6. Oh my god~
7. Dinners make a comeback
8. Blackout

Some common stages happen in club includes, I’ll use ‘you’ in the example:

1. You ‘suddenly’ become an expert on every topic in the known universe. You know you know everything and want to share the knowledge to anyone who will listen. At this stage, you think you are smart so you are always right and the other person you are speaking to is ‘very’ wrong! Then the both of you will talk non-stop and make an interesting debate or argument when both parties think they are both ‘smart’.
2. You ‘suddenly’ realized that you are the best looking person in the club and that people fancy you. You go up to a stranger thinking they fancy you and really want to talk to you. You still think you are smart, so you talk to this person about any topic under the sun.
3. You ‘suddenly’ become the richest person. You buy drinks for every friend you encounter - you know you have to buy them since you are smart and the best looking person in the world now!
4. You ‘suddenly’ become a bullet proof person, no fear in anything so you challenge a game of wits with someone. Loser drink more but you know you have no fear of losing because you are smart, rich and hell better looking than any of them.
5. This is the final stage. You suddenly become invisible and no one can see you. You dance on a table to impress the person whom you fancy because the rest of the people cannot see you. As you are still invisible after the club, you walk through the street back to your home singing at the top of your lungs because no one can see or hear you and you are still smart as you know all the words in the lyrics. You act while you sing as well, since you are still the best looking person in the world.
   

Well, I think that’s most of it, a bad scenario will end up getting wallop by some other strangers who think they are ‘Jet Li on act’, that’s when the argument gets to the ugly side – the first ‘best looking’ chap don’t agree with the second ‘best looking’ chap, so they know they have to bash each other to win the title as this is a competitive world! Don’t you agree?

If anyone is reading this entry and you are an alcoholic… don’t get the wrong idea, I’m not trying to stop you since everyone know what is the best for themselves.

But here are some helpful tips for hangover if you are one alcoholic -

• Eat a healthy meal after wake up as processing alcohol causes a drop in blood sugar and can contribute to headaches.
• Drink plenty of water/juice to get re-hydrated before you crash. One of the best ways I tried is to drink isotonic/sports drinks like Powerade, Gatorade or 100Plus. To get the best rehydrate effect is - one before you start binging alcohol and another one after you stop, it’ll do a good job in re-hydrating the minerals you lost from alcohol.
• Avoid excessive caffeine the next day as it contributes to dehydration. Don’t force your body to go through caffeine withdrawal in addition to alcohol withdrawal.
• An over-the-counter antacid (indigestion aids) like Gastrolite the next day, it relieve some of the symptoms of an upset stomach and also slightly replenish some mineral from alcohol withdrawal.
• Eat and don’t go too many hours without food as this’ll increase the effect of low blood sugar and cause a headache.
• Eat complex carbohydrates like crackers, bagels, bread, cereal or pasta – this helps when the appetite is not in good mood.
  

I think that’s pretty much for this post, I’m off to ‘DOTA’ now! Enjoy your weekend!! ^_^

Little Story About Myself

Once in a while, I’ll immerse myself into deep thoughts about my life and hide my feelings from any friends near me. I had a close partner who once asked me not to keep everything to myself and try to talk about it so she can help. But the problem is, I’m never good at talking, telling my own problems is even worse. Sometimes I’ll find myself quite pathetic or maybe ‘weird depression’ is the right expression, and I wonder how many will sit and listen to someone’s grumbles nowadays. Everyone have their own problems, why would I stack mine on others?

This is not another ‘EMO’ post, just a little look back about my own and some motivation to keep me going. A year ago, I’m a student who stretches his hands for more money to party, eat, study, shop and go fun-trips solely from my Mum’s hard-earn money. Yeah, ‘solely’ is the most appropriate as I’m a single mother child with 2 older brothers ever since 3yo after my Dad pass away from a misfortune, hardly remember any memories though. Only know that Mum tried hard to make end meets for her 3 kids, seems like working 24/7 to me as she’s seldom at home.

I’m not trying to sound sad or feel sorry for myself but that’s a fact. The worst is I never felt lonely or sad about things that happened around me - my grandma and close relatives are always there to take care of me making sure to make things right. When I got older about 8yo, sometimes my relatives will ask me questions like ‘Am I sad that my father pass away?’ Out of stupidity, I answered yes because I’ve watched dramas that taught me that someone should be sad if their father pass away so the answer should be yes. What does sad mean to someone who never went through anything before, blurry memories inside me doesn’t make me feel worse at all…

I’m not going too in-depth about every single issue since that’s not what I wanted to say in this post. So after 24 years of spoon-fed, I finally managed to get out of the education phase and begin my other as a social worker. I’m overjoyed, for I’m able to lessen my mum’s liability by giving portion of the salary. Yeah, it also means that my life here in Melbourne is even harder alone, credit card will be my last resort if things get out of hand, and hopefully it won’t happen. One thing I realized, spending my own is so different from stretching hands - the boundary to spend less seems to cut off and it’s addictive to spend them which match me up with lesser savings and more events. Like what my mum always said, I spend the most out of her among her 3 kids – I’m always on denial about this statement until today - I finally understood what she meant! ‘Spoilt kid’ might be the word for me, a not so rich kid always thinking that he is rich and spending like a rich – totally-totally wrong!!

My reverie moment reflect back to my mum a lot. Without the three of us, she's probably a millionaire now, and all I hope now is to inherit her saving abilities and kick-off my hopelessly spending character… if you haven’t realize what I’m trying to say in here, my career hormones are crying out loud again. How long will it take someone to build a home with clean hands and provide those you love with the most comfortable life?

白手起家一点都不容易!!

Short Update

News of the day: A New Zealand woman drove a man who raped her in the back of his car to a police station after he fell asleep…(Continue)

I don’t think I’ll be updating my blog often until I found my interest in myself again. I’m still doing my usual stuffs - work, party, breakfast and things around with friends but I have something bothering me lately.

Until I’m able to figure them out, I won’t be spending much time online I guess…

All the Best!

Confusion

……………………………………………

I’m wondering
What is this feeling?
I seem to love you
But other times I seem to loathe you

I can’t be without you
Or maybe just without anyone
I think about you all the time
But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice
And I would die to hear you laugh
But is this love
Or merely lust?
……………………………………………
(By: Gary R. Hess)

I’m so flooded with r’shit relationship problems lately. Don’t get the wrong idea, I’m not the victim, I have too many other issues to wonder rather than this one. The above poem is dedicated to the dedicated ones only…

P/S: My PC was in the hospital the whole of last week, and I’m meshed up with too many activities and also, work has been busy for a while and home has become a hotel… @ work now, will update again soon~

Enjoy the new week!!

Sick

I am currently having bad nasal blockage, running nose, soar throat and ......

I am wearing 2 shirt, 1 jacket with the central heating in my house and my room's heater on!!!

Someone tell me why am i still feeling cold~

BLARDY weather~!~!

Frustration

At this moment, exactly this time 9.46 pm 03/09/08, right in front of my computer and in my own room… I AM FUCKING FRUSTRATE!!!

Something About Jessica

I was scrolling through my past photos before I decided to make this post; it’s only good for my own memory so someone else might find bored reading it.

When I was at my younger age, I always hang out with my mum for holiday and I hate taking pictures because all the noisy aunties will come:

• Pinch/ Kiss my face!!
• Tease me in a cutesy way!!
• Ask me to pose and tease me again~
• Say that I look like a girl!!!!!! (Since I’m the youngest and my Mum has always wanted a girl!!)

So after that, I never take pictures again until all the aunties lost interest in me. For anyone out there, please don’t be a noisy auntie! Seriously it’s not cute!!

As for now, taking pictures is a compulsory for any events, since I have a habit to look through them when I’m free; it’s really cool because if I get to picture with someone whom I met the first time, I’ll know when and what they wear or look during the first time we met! Just like this one…

Yes! This post is something about Jessica, so I’m sure it’ll bored everyone since she have a more interesting blog. If you are already bored – you can come here for some fun…

Pictured on 29/04/07, the first memorable time where I met little Cookie!! I remember clearly that I shook her hand that time; she is so tiny!! Sadly, I know everyone except Cookie’s owner!! Probably she wore like a cleaning maid that goes to my house in Malaysia every morning so I tend to overlook… *grinz*

Anyway I don’t think she remember seeing me over that time since I’m such a low profile person~ *Teehee* Well, I think if the world is too big to know one person, go to a smaller room! There you go…

Taken after a few months later at Clement’s birthday bash in Melbourne Chi Karaoke room~

Both were in Melbourne for more than 2 years, probably mix with the same gang of friends sometimes and our first conversation is just like we never met or seen each other before… Someone even asked me "you don’t know JESSICA MEH?!?!?!" - It must be Melanie since it sounds like her.

I’m sorry that I didn’t know I’m supposed to know her earlier – my bad so to make it up… I became a cam-whore~

And there are times when she goes back Malaysia for holiday and friends in Melbourne still want a piece of her… For e.g.

Clement took up a Red Slime when he’s tipsy and took it as Jessica!!


Jay got too much heat from the sun and mistaken a fly as Jessica!!

Anyway, it’s all good – mistakes happen all the time… people who went ‘kuku’ got back straight after she return to Melbourne~

She’s like a savior? LoL!

We got closer after she comes back from Malaysia since we hang out together most of the time – drinks, parties, dinners, birthdays and of course, my 25th birthday!~ Thanks for that again!!!

Realistically, there are friends who are just passer-by, some stop by for a chat and disappear after that, some got very close for some time but lost contact because of different paths we took in life and some just stays in the mind no matter where they are... So these are the photos we had in Bistro Vue – the farewell dinner for Jessica who went back to Malaysia for good~

Yes – no one’s going to come all the way from City to Box Hill just to have steamboat with me~

And Yes – less one person to call me just to check out what I’m doing and vice versa~

Not trying to get too serious in here; last but not least, I’m 1000x glad to know you regardless how late it is… Hope you’ll do well in Malaysia; more fun and less bored!!

A quick update about myself, I just got my PC up FINALLY and I'll be going Ski tomorrow... Wooooohoooo~ so now I need a sleep badly!! I just want to do this post that I wanted to do about a week ago~

Cheers!

Procrastinating Period

Wao~ haven’t realized it’s been a week since my last update.

I just went onto Facebook, scanned through some photo albums and have this thought – I’m overly detached from the world now!! Eve, Steven and Tiff went to my favourite Buffet Restaurant in Crown - The Conservatory !! How dare you go there without me!?!? All the chocolate, prawns, crabs, sashimi and my favourite OYSTERS!!! Alright… chill~ I’m just kidding but I do hope that I was there though… *frowning at Steven*

P/S: Sorry Tiffany - for not calling you out after learning that you came back from Malaysia~

I want to say something before you guys think I’m making complains. For the past few weeks, I’m terribly sorry to anyone who tried to call my mobile or message me through MSN but it’s either that you couldn’t get through or no reply. Apparently, I have grounded myself so to save up for my dumb PC and by doing that, I have ignored myself and everyone else during weekends so that the week goes through faster and my pay check will arrive sooner!!! Tee hee~ I bet no one can imagine how I went through sitting at the same couch for a few days straight facing the same screen not knowing the time; my housemate was impressed that I’ve done that for a month!

Anyway it’s about time to go have some fun, since missing Jessica for her last week in Melbourne is the last thing I want to do, idea about my dumb PC can come later – or should I put it this way - what’s more important than having a glass of wine with Jess?! I know I’m going to miss her after she goes back… But I’ll leave this ‘EMO’ til the right time, for now I’ll worry about my cravings for Conservatory! Sorry Jess~ food always comes first! *grin*

Select your choice: Hot Spring, Great Ocean road, Karaoke, Grand Dinner, Club 7, Morning Brekkie and many many more~ you name it, we do it!

So… what are we up to, pick one or have it all?

Spirits Encounter

I believe everyone heard of ghost stories from friends and schoolmates during young time, but did someone really encounter any of them? Seriously, all these while, I’ve been wondering how these stories came up in the first place; is it true or false? Ever since when I was a young boy at home, I’ll have my grand-father to switch on the toilet lights for me during midnight before I go toilet; I was timid and very afraid of dark; who knows what will come out of that dark room. Thanks to all the stupid ghost stories/ movies/ series played on SBC (S’pore Best Channel Broadcasting Corp) during the 90’s, my primary schoolmates will brag about how they encounter ghost after that. One of the most interesting and unbelievable that I’ll never forget, someone actually told me this with a serious look:

Bragger: “Last night I saw someone climbing up the board of the basketball court outside my flat, and then he starts throwing his head down the hoop and doing it over and over again for the whole night!!!!”

Kieny (amused with another serious look): “Woahhhh!! So what did you do about it?!?!

And because of this reason, I remember that look and his name as a bragger until now… Anyway after that, I started to hear ample of stories, it just gets more and more serious~ seems like all my other mates went home to become a script writer of ghost stories~

Back to what I wanted to say, last Thursday around 2am in between my sleep, I encountered spirits!! Not sure about how many of them since I can’t see them clearly as a whole… I mentioned it to my housemate, he said probably I’m just dreaming but he was quite convinced after I told him I woke up after I heard his footsteps when he came home at 2am since I’m a light sleeper. In precise, I had goose bumps before I heard him and I open my eyes because of his footsteps, and I’m sure I’m awake as I can feel my own eyelid. I can hear him clearly when he walks into his room and closes his door since it was very quiet, and at the same time I saw transparent white stripes and I can feel it’s somewhat alive beside me at my bedside table!! I thought it was my imagination before it starts MOVING!!! Blardy Hell!! CB!!! I can see the movement very clearly under the moonlight and it totally freaks me out!! I dare not open my eyes wide but I’m pretty sure there’re movements in my room for at least 2 minutes before it slowly gets too transparent to be seen. After the white stripes fade off and slowly disappear, I carefully turn my head to check the time on my bedside table, it was around 2.15am and I’m pretty sure since I’m so freaked out by it and so mad that I woke up at the wrong time since I have to work the next day~ I’m not sure why I have the idea that it was a lady in white dress and there was someone at the tip of my feet nearer to my computer table; I somewhat felt it move away from me, I think it’s a kid since I can see it’s shorter than the other… zzZ!! Anyway this is just my assumption from what I saw but I hope I can’t prove this in the future…

Remember I said I was too exhausted from my continuously game play and work for the whole week? I’ve heard from the old that a tired and restless person gets to see spirits easily; this might be the reason or maybe it’s because Chinese ghost festival is near – Lunar calendar July isn’t it?

At first I thought of doing some research on Spirits appearance and the reasons and etc but I thought maybe I shouldn’t before I become paranoid about it… Alright I’m not going to say anymore about this, I put it in here since it’s my first encounter and hopefully it’s the last…

Just got back from work and I’m sick of using this slow laptop, it turns me off when the words appear like 0.2 second slower when I type and I can’t play songs! Suddenly I feel my keyboard is noisy~

BoooooO~!~! its time for PS2~

The Exhaust at Work

I am exhausted to an extent where no one can imagine. Ever since last Friday after companying Kim to KTV near my house and end up reaching home at 7am in the morning!! I didn’t sleep for more than 5 hours each day in average til now. One of the reasons is that I’m assembling a new PC for a friend; installing new Windows and softwares for her, trying to keep up with as much updates as possible since she is less computer-literate. Another reason is: I’m addicted to this old RPG game on PS2 – Suikoden III (LoL!) Yeah, it’s an old and dodgy RPG from the look of it!

I have a habit. Last Saturday, I was extremely bored and tired from 3 hours of sleep after a long day of work + that KTV marathon + alcohol on that Friday. I couldn’t rest since I was too tired, so I thought maybe I can sit and play some dumb games that don’t require energy! I flipped through the game CDs and Suikoden says hi~ so the next moment, I’m on it… and here comes my habit, I forgot I can't stop after I start a story, I just have to finish it... It happens many times; I’ll finish a bored movie, series, games or whatever that have a story line and sometimes I’ll complain a lot in between but I just won’t stop, it’s too hard!!

I’m on PS2 a lot; to save up for my new PC and to pass time since I can’t afford to spend out. Suikoden’s interesting story line kept me up til 1 am every night and I’m glad I’m still able to wake up and go to work.

About work, I’m extremely free this week, most of my team’s works are done and up-to-date so we have to wait for other departments to finish their parts in order to work; the bad thing about hierarchical companies… Anyway I still prefer to be busy as “busy keeps you out of trouble”, but I don’t mind at all that they pay me to sit here just for the look of it, my leader even got a bit bored and closes his eyes for a moment – Gotcha!… Somehow, it’s hard to act busy when you are not, it’s more tiring – I know~

Anyway I got a few more post that I want to make, but I think I’ll do it after I got my PC ready, I hope I can still remember what I want to write during that time… I can’t do it in the office all the time~ how I hope its Friday now…

Have a Good day!

Life without PC

It’s been still for a while and finally I decided to come out of my shell so I end up in club Seven last Friday, I wanted to make a post about it since it was Kim’s Birthday but I can’t do it without my PC. Partly because I can’t edit those photos to my preference for my blog and also, those photo size are too huge for my little blog and will flood my flickr capacity… so I posted them onto facebook album instead. I’ll make it up since it was such a good night.

As I mentioned from my previous post that I will get a better PC, I’ll have to cut down even more from my expenses and save for it. Currently, I’m using my old Dell P4 2.6 laptop, it looks as good but doesn’t process that well anymore, I can’t even watch Anime or edit photos from it! I’m feeling miserable not able to have dinner with my favourite Anime and Series already. But life without a computer is substitute with PS 2; I’ve been playing master league in Winning Eleven 10 – old soccer game. I’m using Manchester United in the League and don’t know why the heck I can’t get Owen over to my team during negotiation period after I offer a blardy high price for him? Eddie! I know you’ve been playing Winning Eleven 2008, so tell me the trick!

Anyway PS2 is just a temporary sidestep for now, I have bigger plans coming. My mum told me that she wants to visit Melbourne for Holiday and I’ll pay for her air ticket – precisely; this is not a request… So first is my PC, her ticket here, my own ticket back to Malaysia during end of the year and then Bangkok trip! – If only I got that $50 million… tee hee~ so hopefully everything goes accordingly… if not let’s make plans for some bank robbery with black toy guns!

So many places to go, so much things to buy but so limited cash, why is there so much limitations around?

Anyway~ I need a new computer, Pronto!

Sluggishness

I feel that 70% of my brain cells started to hibernate with the weather... I am so sluggishhhh now… Anyone feels like how I feel?

I will -

• Call in sick for work when I feel my bed is more comfortable than usual
• Act like I’m very busy during work just to avoid talking to any of my colleagues
• Daze away in front of my office monitor when I have finish all my jobs
• Sleep on the train rather than reading newspaper or my books
• Ask why rather than sorting out the problems myself in whatever situations
• Snug on my bed from the moment I wake up during weekend and watch Hong Kong series the whole day
• Reply short/ignore anyone on MSN and continue watching my series (sorry for that...)
• Snug on my bed and sleep for 24 hours listening to songs and skipping shower, lunch and dinner
• Close my room door with the heater on for the whole day when possible
• Silent my phone so that I don’t have to pick up any calls
• Prevent myself from going out too often so that I don’t have to do too much laundry and etc
• Eat instant noodle for dinner whenever possible until I feel I’m too unhealthy
• Sit/lie down wherever and whenever I can
• Use point-form for my blog post
• And a lot more...
  

Apparently by doing so, I’ve finished two Hong Kong series in 1 week and created an ultimately lazy gizmo in the house~

As for now, I only hope to get a bit more perked up in the mornings~

Life still goes on…

Sunday Night Blues

Phase of Life Teaching

Lately, other than hanging out with my PS2 console at home, I also visited Karaoke clubs a lot… People have been calling me up and ask questions like how was the Karaoke session and did you drink a lot and etc - related questions… I actually got not much to comment about Karaoke now since I find that it has become a kind of routine work to me, I even feel that I have abused the idea to have fun in Karaoke~ And of course, I don’t mean its not fun anymore, I still have enjoyable time with everyone who I went with – and they are all priceless!

Ever since young, people have been saying about not being greedy; have a lot but not too much as ‘too much’ greed your mind and you can’t stop yearning for it until something happens. Last week, I finally fall sick from the consistent Karaoke marathon at night and going to work in the morning after each night. It was an expected outcome for I’m still learning how to treat myself better and healthier~

For the first time in Melbourne, I had fever and also for the first time, I hope there is a ‘somebody’ there to take care of me - doesn’t sound very independent I know but I’ll allow myself since I’m so sick over that time. And again for the first time, desperate for one that can bring me warm water and my medicine in the cold night; I pulled myself out of my bed like a person trying to live out of hell~ Did it couple of times just to make sure I take those pills enough to kick off that fever so I can get back to office the next morning~

Well, I think it’s a phase of life teaching and one time of that feeling teaches better than 10 times what my mum always tells me - take very good care of yourself out there and don’t fall sick! Skipping that part where she asked me to get a girl friend so I’ll have a company… As I’m not into that at the moment, that idea was totally cut off whenever I find myself in such tired and lazy condition, how can I even take care of another personnel when I can’t even do better for myself. And of course, I’m not going to get a partner just because I feel helpless at times~

Sick is really troublesome, after that fever, I went to work and caught up flu and soar throat but it’s definitely not something as bad as that night so I’m alright with it for I know I’ll make myself recover over the weekend… so I bought some Codral relief and Nurofen pain killer for my throat and camp home with my PS2 for last long weekend (Since it was ANZAC Friday – I get to rest well on Thursday), the Codral was really effective as the flu recovered over one night! The Nurofen also helps with my throat recovery and currently I still cough a little with phlegm but I’m recovering and feel so much better now even with the current super cold Melbourne weather~

Did I mention 5 of my lovely Johor friends came over to Melbourne for a week on last Saturday? Hoho~ and that’s the motivation to drain down as much water as I can and recover in the shortest time~! By the way, I have lots of fun this week when they are here and I have so much to say again!

It’s Friday! Hope everyone have a pleasant Friday and great May days ahead!! Cheers!!!

Just a "Stupid" Post

Have anyone ever thought of yourself being stupid at times?

I’m quite free at the moment, despite that I’m lazy to cook dinner now; I’ll make a ‘stupid’ post while resting on my comfy chair. Stupid in the world of dictionary means the lack of intelligence or reason and in reality it simply means when your house toilet can’t flush after you pooped! - don’t worry, it didn’t happen to me~

Apparently, I’m feeling stupid these few days~ from my daily occurrences…

- I usually solve most of the novice/ expert Sudoko whenever I was traveling back home on the train but it has been a while since I solved the easiest one~

- When I was on the train, I read the same sentence for at least twice from my story book without realizing and think that the author is weird~ wonder where my mind... is...

- I ended up holding a pen on my hand against the MX Sudoko and fishing aggressively with my head on the train seat in front of everyone… I’m glad I had my sunglasses on…

- I’m always careful about the task in my job and I won’t delete something that is needed. But yesterday I deleted a file that I’ve worked for 2 long days two months ago just to make some space in my work directory~ ended up with more work this week!

- I am addicted to a game on PS2 call ‘Naruto!!’ and being so into it for my last weekend!!

- I clear up the dishes and serve dessert ice cream to the customers without any dessert fork & spoon and didn’t realize after they were all drooling in front of their food like a doggy~ Evil! Then end up getting told off by the manager with a smile on my face!

- Forgot to check information about DJ Armin Concert for someone~

I’m thinking what has got into me with these issues going on, so I made another stupid move… for I believe in a poker game, if you can't spot the sucker at the table, then it's probably you!! ^_^

So I went into Google and type ‘Facts that causes stupidity’ right after my thoughts– then I found this stupid fact ! – It was quite interesting though and inside I found this sentence - “According to a British law passed in 1845, suicide is a very serious crime, death sentence of hanging is the punishment.” --- What the hell! --- now I feel smarter …

Alright time for Dinner!~!